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vanillacoatedkisses

2009-12-12T02:11:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone. From now on, I'll be blogging from here:
http://vanillacoatedkisses.blogspot.com/

So do link me up yeah! :D

wtf?

2009-12-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

AH OMG I'M FUCKING DISGUSTING

I HAVE LIKE FUCKING ITCHY RASHES ON MY FACE?! LIKE HELLO, MY FACE?!

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY TOO. IT JUST HAPPENED AFTER I WASHED MY FACE AND BATHED. WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

AHHHHH OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

2009-12-09T23:21:00.001+08:00

sigh i tried.
you just weren't sensitive enough.

maybe i shouldn't try anymore.

♥

2009-12-09T22:56:00.001+08:00

Sherlyn is like the sweetest person ever lor?? She bought chocolate beancurd for me and she came to my house just to pass it to me! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

now i'm pretty confident that i can score well for tmr's papers. HAHAHAHA LOVE YOU LAH SHERLYN ♥♥♥

2009-12-09T15:22:00.003+08:00

sometimes i like you, and sometimes i don't. you can be both mean and nice. but when you're nice, you treat everyone equally nice.

i just wish you weren't that nice to everyone. i don't even know where i stand.

alright i'm thinking too much. i know it's pretty impossible...

anywayz, i've got 2 more papers to go! so far my papers are all okay. Law isn't as hard as i thought it would be and stats was pretty good for me. (Y) hehe i'm so looking forward to the holidays! oh yes, another thing i wanna add onto my priority list is to go register for driving BTT. weeee i wanna learn how to drive :D

off to mugggggg

come on.

2009-12-08T02:03:00.001+08:00

isn't it obvious enough that i'm trying to prolong our conversation? every single time i try to do that (in fact every time), you seem so eager to put our conversation to an end.

sigh why are some people just so insensitive...

right, since when was i ever lucky on such things. i think i need to get a hold of myself and start being realistic and practical.

law exam is gonna be a huge disaster tomorrow, i swear.

1 down, 4 to go.

2009-12-07T17:24:00.001+08:00

Lol, I feel that I'm damn zai. I'm gonna draw 5 of such mindmaps.
My hand is on the verge of breaking into half x-x

2009-12-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

omg i seriously feel like slapping myself because....

never mind.

2009-12-06T18:15:00.001+08:00

I'm so dead for exams.

I can't stop eating even though I'm crazy full, and everthing I'm reading now just can't register itself in my brain?

sigh.

G.E.M - All About You

2009-12-06T16:45:00.001+08:00

This is currently my favourite song! G.E.M is such an awesome singer. She's only 18 years old lor?! Hahhaha love her other songs as well. The first time I heard it was when I was in Beijing. Hahah (Y)

*IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU
I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU
我眼中分分秒秒也有你
我每次想起　已滿心歡喜
你我之間都有過太多趣味
IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU
我的心機　何時悲　何時喜　也因你
IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU

die liao lor?

2009-12-05T17:31:00.003+08:00

HOLY F*CK I'M PROCRASTINATING LIKE CRAZY.

WTF, I'M NOT EVEN DONE WITH TASK 1 OUT OF 5.

*facepalm*

2009-12-05T14:36:00.002+08:00

1 hour into the study schedule and I'm procrastinating like mad already. Feeling fidgety all over and whatever I read or try to memorize just disappears from my memory.

I can't concentrate. Oh god.

Someone please help me? I'm like munching on whatever I can find right now to make myself feel better :(

oh my god

2009-12-05T12:58:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure if I'm being too ambitious, because I'm gonna try studying and completing 5 tasks by today. And I can't decide if I should study Law or MPM today instead (my MPM paper's on Monday). arghhhhh going nuts already.

Hopefully there are no distractions?

But I know you are.

yummmmm.

2009-12-05T00:54:00.004+08:00

such pretty foods... :)

i'm hungry ):

i swear i'm gonna HAVE an oven in my house in near future. OMGISOWANTPANCAKESDRIGHTNAOW T^T

fuck

2009-12-04T23:36:00.001+08:00

need i say more?

"hello, hey, hi, yo" anything i can think of to start a conversation with you.

2009-12-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

i'm doing law tutorial right now. not doing very good apparently because i'm supposed to be completing my tutorials like right now, and not type away in my blog.

and of course chatting with you?

hahahah i'm so dead for exams man. seriously.
suddenly i feel like my brain is gonna explode due information overload -.-

had awesome steamboat dinner with my parents, and most importantly, i got the colours of the strings i want.

:):):):)

ttm?

2009-12-02T23:14:00.005+08:00

it's not that I don't wanna talk to you. i'm just afraid that i'll say the wrong things to start and end the conversation in an abrupt, awkward way :(

meowwwwwwwwww

2009-12-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

oh my someone please help me. tammy has been meowing away for idk what reasons! this is the first time that she has meowed so many times. usually she only meows for attention when she's hungry and then she'll stop once she's being fed. but this time, she isn't about the food nor her litter, and i tried carrying her but she just struggled out of my arms. so confused right now. idk why she's meowing away now! omg help help help? :(

anyway, i finished up my MPM notes at Starbucks today with Shujun and Jinsiang. we also had awesome Popeye's for dinner! 2nd time at the flyer. wish i had more time to look at the decorations and all, but like i said (for the forth time), i'm running out of time. i've no time to even relax for awhile (alright maybe facebooking counts but it's for less than an hour). exams are in 4 days time! major sighxz to teh maxxxxx. not confident about this time round's exams. there are like 4 subjects that i've yet to revise. at all. omg GPA's gonna drop like fucking nutzzzzzzzzzz~~

okay before i go, i kinda decided that i should change my blog URL to www.vanillacoatedkisses-.blogspot.com.

awesome or what? (Y) \m/

2009-12-02T02:20:00.000+08:00

I should be sleeping right now! 4 hours of sleep left x-x (okay no, 3/1/2 hrs to be exact).

does:

www.vanillasugarcoatedkisses.blogspot.com sound good?

I NEED FEEDBACK MAN.

finally

2009-12-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

The following is on my top priority list after my exams are over:

Change my blog layout
Change my blog URL (it's about time)
Get sufficient sleep
Eat a good good feast
Start braiding something for someone that I promised :)
Catch up with my favourite people!

Woooo now all this is getting me crazily excited! Pah, my exams are not even here yet -.-
okay omg i really need help in finding a perfect name for my blog URL! omgomggggg i don't have any inspirations -.- i don't understand why is it so easy for some people to come out with some fantastic title/name instantly. Like how lor?! I've been racking my brains in the shower just now... and I decided that it should contain the word "vanilla". Lol no reasons why I wanna add that particular word in, but I just think it's nice? Heh. Plus, my blog layout is gonna consist of cream colours! EXCITED MUCHXZ.

BUT ALL THIS IS ONLY POSSIBLE AFTER MY EXAMS. sigh, why can't I put all these concentration into my studies instead? This is probably my third time saying this but I'm still gonna say it anyways:

I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME !@#$%@!#$%

hahahahah okay meanwhile, I hope I can get suggestions regarding my blog URL from people. hellooooo anyone out there can help me suggest some fanastic URLs with the word "vanilla" inside? yooohooo?!

okay wtf why am i so high. hahaha alright i shall go eat dinner and then start studying my law!

nobody, nobody but you~

"baby can't you see, you belong to me"

2009-11-30T23:16:00.002+08:00

I'm in the midst of revising for my Statistics Lab test tomorrow.

It's very random of me to say this, but,

is someone missing me very very badly or something?
cos I can't seem to stop sneezing for the past 2 days.

sigh

2009-11-29T23:37:00.005+08:00

; my pretty pretty angel :D

just returned home not long ago from Starbucks at Suntec City. i decided to drink tea instead of my usual frappes. earl grey's not bad, but i think i'll try whiteberry tea next time round.

anyway, Happy Birthday Jinsiang! lol, went clubbing ytd at Zirca and Rebel to celebrate that fella's birthday. I WASN'T DRUNK. AT ALL. wooo! majority of the girls were drunk, and mr quek act one hero, drunk so many shots and it was a mixture of champagne, martell and chivas. he even vomitted on the dance floor and everyone was like eww and i was the one who helped him clean up and carried him out! haha you owe me one mr quek!

okay my body is aching very badly all over now. i really mean the whole body. omgxz 1 more week to exams ._.

the rest of the photos for today:

sigh. you never fail to make others feel like rubbish.
i should have noticed the change in you way earlier. i really should have.

fyvm.

2009-11-28T14:48:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so tired right now. Dance today was very very tiring and I felt so lousy and uninspired despite Ryan's beautiful choreography. Sigh. I want to be a better dancer, but I don't have enough time. I'm running out of time.

I think I'm actually getting lousier and lousier in dance :(

3 hours left to study today. SIGHXZXZXZXZXZ

2009-11-27T22:22:00.003+08:00

I've finally figured it out after so long.
I was stupid enough to believe that was the actual reason.

Fact is, xx' x xxxx not xxxx xxxx me.

Sorry, no prizes for guessing. Even if you manage to, it doesn't really matter anymore.

2009-11-27T20:56:00.002+08:00

I'm running out of time.

And I'm running out of energy to keep up and accept the truth.

2009-11-27T03:07:00.002+08:00

Sigh. Sometimes I think I'm the one who needs counseling instead.

What a fool.

p.s. it shouldn't be hurting. but why is it?

2009-11-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

omg CRS today was quite... sucky. Sighxzxzxz, totally didn't expect some of the questions the teacher asked and I was somewhat stunned. And i kinda just stonned. HAHAHA

sigh i have so many notes to chiong. 1 week left to study for exams.

d-i-e.

running

2009-11-23T01:28:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling numb right now.

i hate the way my mood changes so rapidly. i hate it that when i've decided to do something, i'll eventually stop following and keeping up to my decision.

today i've decided to move on. to stop thinking. to stop being foolish. to stop dreaming about things that will never happen.

but tomorrow... i'm afraid that i'll be the opposite instead.

i just won't admit it.

would you stop to slow dance with me?

2009-11-23T00:11:00.003+08:00

this is the second time i'm posting this video. and probably the fourth time i've watched this.
but this time round... i just wish i could say the same like i did previously.

i can't anymore.

2009-11-22T18:34:00.002+08:00

omg, Star Movies is gonna show Twilight later at 9pm! omggggg die liao no need to studyyyyyy T^T

and hello? can somebody tag my tagboard please? it's crazy rotting away already lor?!

2009-11-22T15:46:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO I'M SO HAPPY NAOOOOWWW COS I FINISHED UP MY CRITICAL REASONING SKILLS ARTICLE! YIPEEEEEE~~~

NOW I'M GONNA MOVE ON TO WRITING OF MY LAW NOTES :D

HAPPY HAPPYYYYY

"I gotta a feeling"

2009-11-22T13:44:00.002+08:00

Okay idk why I'm feeling so happy today. No one's at home except me on a Sunday, with tons of tasks to done. Gonna be busy today! Gotta finish lots of thingssss. I hope I can finish it by today? OKAY HOPEFULLY THERE ARE NO DISTRACTIONS THAT'S GONNA MAKE ME CHATTY AND START CHATTING WITH PEOPLE, START FACEBOOKING, AND STUFFS THAT MAKE ME GO EMO-NEMO.

hahahaha I'm seriously feeling good today!

Being busy makes me happy? :D

fear

2009-11-22T00:13:00.003+08:00

Everyone's going gaga over Lady Gaga's Bad Romance. Oh my god, I'm so sick of listening to people singing it (jeremias is one) and writing the lyrics all over, like in Facebook and MSN. Totally irritating!

Another irritating thing is my throat. Damn it seriously. Went to the doctor this morning (and i had to skip dance thanks to my fucked up throat) for the SECOND time. zzz I hate it when I have to go to see the doctor twice. Stupid dry cough has been around for 2 weeks. Now i'm on a second round of antibiotics. Hate eating antibiotics unless necessary. What if the virus in my body mutates and I need a stronger dose next time round? arghhhh and I can't stop fucking coughing? Coughed like crazy thrice today, until my tears came out and my face was so damn red. FUCK DRY COUGH!

Sigh, I haven't been studying much. So many things to complete, and I feel no sense of urgency at all. CRS essay is untouched, projects are piling up and I'm not even touching it. I have yet to practice and complete my tutorials as well? fucking hell, I think I'm so gonna score badly for this time round's exams.

I took a bus home today. Not very usual of me? Hahah I just needed some time to myself after a long day out. To make things worse, I didn't get a seat at all. And we barely exchanged more than 10 sentences of words for 2 hours. So disappointed. I feel that I need to straighten out my thinking. It's doing a lot of harm to me and my actions. I just wish I wasn't so confused and so uncertain about how I'm feeling.

I feel that I lack of courage. I can imagine how things could be different from what it is now if I had the courage. If only I tried. If only I took the initiative. If only I....

It's pretty pointless to say this right now. What's done is done. And what's over is over. I can't do much to change the situation anymore because it will only lead to more awkwardness.

"If you never try, you'll never know" I hope I can agree to this, but thing is, I know that even no matter how much I try, things would turn out to be disappointing anyway. It's just that constant disappointment I get all the time and that constant sadness I'm overwhelmed with all the time. It makes me quite tired of trying... at times I just wanna give up even without trying. Even if I did try a little, things would just turn out to be...

I feel so weak.

Please talk to me? :/

hmmm.

2009-11-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

okay it's weird to say this but,
today i don't feel like playing Bejeweled. IKR, such a miracle! lolol i actually think my eyesight is deteriorating because of Bejeweled... kinda have blurred visions after playing for long hours :/

caught 2012 today. the graphics were so amazing and so realistic. hahaha makes me wonder what i'll do when it's really the end of the world. hmm i have 3 more years to complete whatever needs to be done. then i think i'll die without regrets?

this is a really short entry. gonna go watch my HK drama series and then SLEEP. got 8 am class tmr T^T

but i'm gonna have awesome lunch at Ikea and dance session after class :D

2009-11-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

I think I finally found a logical answer to my binge eating habit.

I eat excessively because I simply have nothing to do.

Lol, it's really true though. I eat when I have nothing to do or when I'm feeling bored. So whenever there's free time (like a short class break) available, I would eat something even though I'm not very hungry... sigh.

I never used to eat this much.

And I always feel like stuffing myself with food when I'm feeling sad. Now that explains those terrible love handles I'm having...

2009-11-14T16:11:00.001+08:00

It's great to see Lything again today. It's been so long since I last saw her ever since she flew over to Australia to study. Had a great time catching up with her as well as both Lynettes! Hahaha. I really hope we can have more of such breakfast meet ups like this together :)

I've been really really slack in school work recently. Hate it that I have no idea what to do at all. Worse, I don't even have the motivation in knowing what I'm supposed to be doing when I don't at all. Totally forgotten about projects and tutorials. I'm too lazy to read up on the lectures I've missed or to copy notes from my friends. Sigh. I'm afraid that my results will no longer be as good as before. I've absolutely no idea why I'm acting like I do not care about anything at all. Exams is like, 3 weeks away from now? :/

I'm thinking it must be the pms. Has to be. Been having crazy mood swings. I can almost cry over anything! Now even as I'm typing this, I feel like crying. Argh need to stop being crazyyyy

Alright, maybe playing some Bejeweled will help? Heh. After that, I shall start on my projects and tutorials! Hope that I'll successfully pull through this.

2009-11-14T15:08:00.003+08:00

i'm afraid that no one else except you could ever make me feel this way again

I've been thinking. Ever since we talked the other time, I'm starting to feel that you are still a part of me and that you had never left at all. This is really weird because... for the past 8 months, I'm trying my best to put behind everything about us, which I felt that I've succeeded in doing that. But right after I talked to you, everything just came rushing back into my mind.

Now I'm not sure whether this bitterness I feel in me all the time is because I really still do like you, or is it because of the memories and not you anymore? I'm really confused. It was only then that I had the chance to pour out whatever that was kept in me for 8 months. And I finally know how you felt after 8 months. And what you still feel. I guess I need more time.

Whatever it is... those memories will stay with me. And I hope that you would too no matter as a friend, a foe or a lover.

Please stay.

breathe

2009-11-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

i've got so much to catch up on! i'm going through my statistics tutorial right now, and i still have a lot to study! tskkkkk. and other tutorials as well :/ i think i'm becoming more and more slack in my studies. needa jiayou! otherwise my picture is not gonna be at the SMA 7th floor anymore :(

anywayz, i love the new Bejeweled in Facebook. the graphics is like 123142739847534 times better than the previous version, and the points system is like \m/ lah? hahaha can't stop playing it! and i'm also watching 家好月圆 episodes that i've missed out when i was away at beijing. Tudou.com is like a life saver. i think from now on, i can just go there to watch all my HK drama series :D

alright gotta go study now. sigh hate the feeling of being sick and having to stay up to study. and thinking of what happened recently. not good.

2009-11-08T23:07:00.001+08:00

One question: Can I actually find anyone better than you?

My answer? Maybe. And maybe not at all.

2009-11-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

it's funny how i can still miss you. but it's more of missing those memories. not really you anymore.

2009-11-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

Finally! Waves 14 is over! I can concentrate on my studies nowwwww :D
hahahah Waves 14 was fun... kinda miss it already. hahaha thanks shujun, sivien, angel, julien, farhana, jinsiang, jeremias, brandon, tinglei, aaron, gerald and zai for coming down to watch the performance :D next year is gonna be a dope-r year, cos i think i'll be joining hiphop again! needa go chiong more items in my final year in SP.

Beijing trip was also damnnnnn awesome! missing it like crazy luh... the food, the beer, the weather... EVERYTHING. every night also eat mutton sticks with beer... damnn shiok lor? hahah! don't wish to go back to school actually...

and i've yet to upload my Beijing trip photos... x-x omg damn lazy can

yes, this is how busy i've been. not blogging for more than 2 weeks.

alright, i think i shall go study now. byeeeeee

Beijing :)

2009-10-17T15:43:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna be away from 18 Oct till 1 Nov for my Beijing Exchange trip. hahahah i'm pretty hyped up! The weather's gonna be freezing cold (18 degrees to 3 degrees I think). heh. I can't wait to come back after the trip as well so that I can practice for Waves 14 and get ready for the concert in 5 days time when I'm back. Not to mention, going back to SMA to study and see all my classmates :) ehhhh y'all don't outcast me k!! XD

Aja Aja SDZ! and aja aja Li Ern! Hehehe will miss you guys!

北京！我来了！

damn

2009-10-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

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i'm sorry but i'm really so tired. hate it that dance practices are eating up more than half of every week?! that only leaves me with like, Mondays, Tuesdays and Sundays for rest. sometimes even my Tuesdays are being eaten up by dance. fmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfml

flying off in 3 days time and there are so many things that needs to be done/bought, and i can't even find time. well even if i do manage to find time, i have to rush to get things done. fucking hate it when i have to rush.

damn, i'm seriously lacking of sleep. i can even fall asleep in the train STANDING. amazing or what? arghhhhhhh !@#$%^&*()_+

freaking angsty and hungry. SHFKSHGKHGKDFGHORATOQTUKJHVMNBVNCXV BYE.

Bangkok Trip Day 3, 4 and 5

2009-10-12T23:05:00.003+08:00

hello all. tbh, i'm pretty lazy to blog about my bangkok trip day 3 and 4! lol but i will luh, in a very very brief manner.

DAY 3:

we got up early and headed to Chatuchak Weekend Market! the place is freaking huge. they have a handicraft section, pets section, clothings & accessories section etc. it's so huge that we almost got lost and we couldn't walk finish. hahaha. shujun and i shopped a lot. okay wait, i shopped the most. the clothes there were damn awesome luh. all the clothings i bought were mostly around $4 or $5. hahaha the studded sandals are freaking nice and cheap! $4 per pair. hahaha no wonder i bought 8 pairs throughout the whole trip x-x

chatuchak closes at 6pm, so we left at around 5 plus pm. we took the skytrain over to MBK shopping centre. it wasn't really that great as how other people described it to be. we went there to settle our dinner at Fuji Japanese Restaurant. rather cheap compared to singapore's prices. after that we took a taxi down to Suan Lum Night Bazaar :) the shops there sold clothes at a slightly higher price. most of the shops there sold designer clothes. after that we took a tuktuk back to our hotels! freaking scary k! lol, it's like the tuktuk was gonna topple over to the side when it's turning. and the driver drove super fast! this will be the first and last time i'm gonna take a tuk tuk man. scaryyyyyyy

DAY 4:

we went back to Chatuchak again for the last round of shopping since Chatuchak is only open on the weekends. Shujun and i tried the coconut ice cream! it was freaking nice! hahaha \m/ we left at around 3 plus pm and cabbed to Chinatown. we wasted quite a lot of time there though. there wasn't much to look at, except for the sex toys that were sold there. the guys were very fascinated by it. haha! :X we had awesome seafood for dinner! the jumbo prawns were freaking awesome srsly! damn orgasmic lor. the best prawns i've ever eaten in my life. after that we cabbed down to Patpong/Si Lom Night Bazaar. stuffs there were pretty overpriced compared to all the night markets/weekend markets i've went, and the stall holders were pretty aggressive. kinda scary in fact. and there were lots of pesky thais asking us if we wanna watch the Ping Pong show (fyi, the show is about women performing tricks using their vaginas. yes, vaginas). freaking overpriced too! read online about people being cheated of their money after agreeing to watch it for 200 baht, only to find out the price was raised to 2000 baht or smth like that. we went back to our hotel area after that except for jere cos he went to drink with his thai friend. the rest of us bought our dinner at Pratunam market and had our food at the hotel room that shujun and i shared. that night was damn fun, cos we played dai dee, uno, and we even had pillow fight! hahaha it was superrrrrr. we headed over to Baiyoke Sky Hotel's observation deck at 84th floor. the view was breathtaking! :D we camwhored there as well. hehehe luvluvluv the view and that night!

DAY 5:

Shujun and I woke up earlier than the rest of the guys and checked out. we left our luggage at the concierge and headed to Pratunam market and Platinum Shopping Mall to do some last minute shopping! hahaha omg i was like penniless by then, cos i spent all my moneyz there. so sadz. :/ but anyways, the foodcourt at Platinum Shopping Centre was damn awesome. the food is freaking cheap, and i had awesome chocolate banana crepes at SGD$1.30?! crazy right! wlau, why can't sg have such cheap food :/

we all met at the hotel lobby at 4.30pm and the limousine van picked us up and drove us to the airport. slacked there for hours as our flight was at 9.15pm. i can't tell you how having a credit card makes you like a king. basically, i had no more baht left, and i just used my credit card to pay for everything in the airport. yes, i paid for my meal at burger king using visa. ahhahahaha how cool is that? i also bought some cosmetics from the airporttttt. hehe.

we arrived at singapore at around 12.40 am. Leon, Brandon and I were the last to check out of the arrivals hall cos we were busy browsing and choosing our liquors! Jere, Jinsiang and Shujun left first. hahaha. I bought a bottle of Caramel Creme Baileys and 3 bottles of Hoegaarden beer. felt kinda bad to let my dad wait so long for us :X hahah my dad dropped Leon and Brandon off at their house first before returning home.

overall, the Bangkok trip was superbbbb. i'm so going back there to shop again next year! and i'll bring more moneyyyyyyyyzzzzz. hehehehehe! :DD I LOVE BANGKOKKKKK

Bangkok Trip Day 1 & Day 2

2009-10-08T00:25:00.005+08:00

okay hi everyone, i shall blog about my Bangkok trip without photos! super lots of photos i tell you. wanna upload them to Facebook, but the photo uploading system is fucking up badly. i keep getting this failed status when i tried to upload the photos. blame facebook, not me! :P

anywayz, i spent approximately about SGD$700 on just shopping & food. including the accommodation and air tickets, it would be a total of SGD$1k for the entire trip. hahaha pretty crazy uh. i spent the most out of all my friends (shujun, jinsiang, leon, jeremias and brandon). hahhaha i shopped like crazy! I think i bought around near 30 pieces of clothings (incl. top & bottoms), 9 pairs of shoes & sandals and lots of accessories! man, i'm defo going back to Bangkok again next year man. i don't think i'm gonna go shopping for the next 4 months or so? HAH. with the amount of clothes i have... i think i can have different kinds of combinations / new clothes to wear everyday for 1 month. power or what? :B

DAY 1:
it was pretty fun, cos after arriving at bangkok's airport, we spent quite some time buying prepaid sim cards (freaking cheap), and then we hired a limousine van to send us to the hotel. $8 per pax. cheap or what? lol. Baiyoke Boutique Hotel is kinda nice, with all the interiors being revamped into a really modern-ish design. loved the feel it gave me and considering the price we paid for the hotels, it was pretty awesome already. we left our luggage at the concierge, as we had around 4 hrs of f&e time before we can check in.

we explored Pratunam market (super near our hotel), and there were so many cheap buys! now i know why those blog shop people always go to bangkok to take stocks... there were so many clothes there that were on sale on blog shops. thrice the price i can get from bangkok on top of that. woohoo, i can get a nice checkered button down shirt for like SGD$4? WOO.

we went on to Platinum shopping mall. that place is freaking huge. and it's a must go for all ladies! hahahah too bad there very little shops that sold men apparels. so shujun and i just walked on our own. we spent around 1 hr and 15 mins just at level 5 (the accessories level). wlau, see the accessories also headache alr lor. seriously platinum shopping mall is like some kind of you-can-never-shop-finish kind of mall?! lol i bought rather awesome rings and some hairbands. hmm but not very cheap i must say. the rings costs me SGD$19 in total for 3 rings, and around SGD$8 for 2 hairbands? but definitely cheaper than sg luh.

we spent the rest of day 1 walking around my hotel area. we also went for traditional thai massage! pretty shiok i must say. hehe. we didn't venture far and didn't sleep too late as we had to get up early the next day for some tour excursion that came with the limousine package we hired.

DAY 2:
woke up at around 6 am in the morning and went to have the hotel buffet breakfast. woo, damn shiok lor the food. hahaha. after that we took the limousine van over to the jetty of the Chao Phraya River. took a boat and we toured around the river. went to some snake farm and blah. the snake show was damn exciting! hahaha jinsiang that kuku act one brave and wanted to let the uncle allow the snake to bite him. turns out that uncle was just joking. haha! after that we went over to Central World! freaking awesome mall! they had a really hugeass Forever 21 shop, Topshop, and even Playboy! hahah i bought a Playboy necklace for SGD$45... well it's chio and it's not available in sg, so why not buy? i also bought 2 Naraya bags. it's damn cute k :D hehehe. ohoh, and after that we went over to Siam Paragon, Siam Center, Siam Discovery and Siam Square. Siam Square was the best of them all, cos that was where Shujun and I found the type of clothes and price range that we wanted. I think I spent around $200 for the entire day. HAHA. I bought 2 pairs of jeans, one pair of black capris, 2 cropped shirts, 1 pair of denim shorts, 2 v-neck shirts, 1 pair of heels, and 1 pair of black sandals. heheheh pretty awesome right i know.

; awesome lightning ring :D

; my favourite :D

; Baiyoke Boutique's lobby

; the concierge area (:

; my Playboy necklace! chio right! ignore my red pimple plsss lol

; Shujun posing :D

hahahha okay right now, i'm really lazy to continue. i think i'll continue day 3, 4 and 5 another day. but at least i uploaded some photos! XD hehehehehehheh byeeee i know y'all are freaking envious right naowwwww

2009-10-06T17:22:00.003+08:00

hello alll!!! i'm back i'm backkkk

Bangkok was hell awesome! \m/ hahaha awesome till the extent that i've only left 20 baht in my wallet (which is less than SGD$1). hahaha power or what?! okay i shall blog about it only when i have uploaded my pictures. sighxz, i don't think i can do it today cos i have to head down to school in about another half an hour's time for dance. ohmygod i have so much to catch up. makes me stressed T^T

and i realised something else after returning from bangkok.

[edit: HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JEREMIAS :D]

2009-09-30T20:59:00.001+08:00

hello omg, in another 7 hours time, i'll be heading to the airport alr. hahahah okay now i'm exciteddddddd

so many things to buyyyyyy

WHEE BYE SINGAPORE AND HELLO BANGKOK

2009-09-30T01:27:00.002+08:00

Approximately in another 24 hours' time, I'll be getting ready to fly off to Bangkok.

Hmm can't say I'm very excited about it... weird right, I know.

Sigh. I know I won't be missed anyway.

2009-09-27T22:58:00.002+08:00

hmmm. i want to change my blog layout. but not anytime soon i guess. been rather busy :/

also, about the decision of changing my blog URL.... i don't think i'll be changing it. it actually kinda makes sense. the 'x' in 'xlivin-love' kinda sounds like 'ex'? hah, meaning it's the past? it really makes sense eh...?

i have no idea whether using my sony ericsson w810i is a good or bad idea. had that phone 3 years ago? which brings back quite a lot of memories... from pictures to voice recordings. it was something that no one else will ever have. i don't think i'll actually find someone that i can have such... crappy conversations with? no, don't get me wrong. i love these crappy conversations. no one can ever compare to you. no one could ever make me laugh over these conversations or have the same frequency we had whenever we spoke to each other. no one could ever understand what we had was so unique and so real. really. no one.

i love you, mua mua

could anyone else understand besides you and i? i don't mean to make things awkward for us if you're reading this. i very much want to bring up these memories to you just for reminiscing. but i know you. you wouldn't like it. i'm sorry if i had to do this the indirect way. maybe you aren't even reading this space anymore.

if you are, i hope you'll enjoy reading this? hahah i couldn't stop laughing just listening to those voice recordings... the F1 sounds you made. haha.

everything happens for a reason. maybe losing my phone was so that these memories could be brought up. and that i could listen to the F1 sounds you made when F1 is happening in Singapore now.

you are so special to me.

FML

2009-09-27T20:59:00.003+08:00

today's a FML day. totally. some fucker stole my handphone from the front pocket zip of my backpack. fuck that asshole who stole my pixon. now i'm camera-less and stuck with my old sony ericsson w810i. fuck. i can't take photos on my bkk trip already? fuck fuck fuck fuck

may that fucker who stole my pixon get into some freak accident and DIE to pay for the all the shit that i have to handle right now. lost everyone's contacts and i need to get used to using the keypads again. arghhhhh

i'm having a very bad sore throat dry cough right now too? and there are plenty of old photos in my w810i. plenty. FML.

2009-09-27T02:14:00.000+08:00

I should feel happy for you, right?

but why am i filled with.... envy? and sadness?

Elisa - Dancing

2009-09-23T02:50:00.001+08:00

Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears
'cause it's all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather

So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I'll be leaving soon

My eyes are on you they're on you
And you see that I can't stop shaking
No, I won't step back but I'll look down to hide from your eyes
'cause what I feel is so sweet and I'm scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I'd better dream if I have to struggle

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

I'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

2009-09-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

(I have a sudden urge to blog abt this while playing Bejeweled)

What if somebody close to me act like they are supporting me in what I'm doing is actually pretending? Hate it when that happens. I can't force them to like what I like, but it sucks that your closest friend or family doesn't like it. I mean, obviously you want them to support your decision in a genuine way, and not faking it right?

Now I have no idea whether asking them to support me (in a genuine way of course) is a good or bad idea. That might just change their POV towards me. :/

empty

2009-09-20T14:41:00.003+08:00

I think this is it. I need to stop hoping. Apparently everything is not working out the way I think it would.

I hope that I'll just stop talking too much. And stop questioning too much. It makes everything seem so... forced? And fake? But even if I keep quiet, things are not gonna be the same anyway.

We're even worse than strangers. It feels even weirder than talking to random strangers on the streets. I guess I should probably keep a distance away from you. Being normal doesn't help. I can tell you don't even want to talk to me. Not even a tad bit curious to know how I am doing. I really hope you can prove me wrong about this? Sigh. I miss the times when our conversations were endless. I miss the times when we can really just be ourselves without having to think about what to say. Everything was so natural, so real.

I guess we just ran out of words to say to each other.

last.

2009-09-17T23:57:00.003+08:00

yes yes yes yes the day i've been waiting for since 6 months ago is finally here! the last day of attachment is tomorrow! yesssss i smell freedom, late nights, sleeping for long hours, having tons of awesome fun, meeting up with all my favourite people and nearing of my bkk trip (in 2 weeks time yes baby!) and Beijing trip!!! YIPEEDOO~~~

am a very very excited and happy girl naow.

anwz, today was pretty cool cuz shujun and i saw Ah Soon at Taka!! omgggg i miss him so much man. like, really SOOOO much. it has been donkey years since we saw him. my god i swear it was such a freaking coincidence luh. super elated to see him today. we took photos and we were doing lots of catching up. Ah Soon, we should go out more often next time k! :D and rmb ah, must abuse your 50% staff discount. HEH.

the maritime talk today was kinda good. Mr Julian Hung presented. hahaha and he was wayyy overtime. i wanna be a charterer in future. otherwise, i really don't know what to do in the shipping industry in the future ._.

alright i'm off to sleep. having insufficient sleep for the past few days due to dance. and i haven't been updating my Twitter :/ BYE.

2009-09-15T00:08:00.003+08:00

i hate it when i have those dreams again. it always happens whenever i have anything to do with it on that day itself irl, or indirectly having to come across events that reminds me of it.

i find that it's actually okay to dream about it. i like it in fact. but what i hate is when my dreams drift off into an unrealistic situation... i guess it's just trying to remind me that it is something i can never have irl... so i suppose my brain is actually generating these dreams to make me feel happy?

i can't decide whether i prefer for all these dreams to stop happening. after all, it is what i really want...

sigh i'm trying so hard not to make this entry too obvious. sorry if anyone gets confused by what i'm writing. i honestly think i suck at expressing myself :/

i'm off to sleep now. and hopefully i'll have more realistic dreams? so afraid that unrealistic dreams will just remind me of those past memories....

gone were the days.

2009-09-14T14:55:00.002+08:00

i can't tell you guys how much i love my new scheduler. no, i didn't buy a new one. i painstakingly printed, cut and pasted the words "Monday" all the way to "Sunday" generated from MS Excel into the notebook that feather gave me for my 17th birthday. i've yet to complete cutting and pasting them in though. i'm doing it on a bit by bit basis. by far, i've already done up to week 7 :) it's a weekly scheduler i'm making. not the fixed one. heh. i think i can use this schduler up to next year around this month, provided that i use it everyday! i even left a space at the back portion for note-taking purposes. tell me how smart i am. hahahah happyhappy!

pah, but i hate it when my handwriting looks like shit on my scheduler. my handwriting on this week's schedule suxballsxz. h8 it h8 it h8 it! makes my whole scheduler look so messy and ugly. :/ then again, i can't really write that neatly, because the center part of the book is like bulging up and it causes my hand to write in a really awkward position... i guess y'all should know what i mean luh.

anwz, the new intern is not here yet. he's only coming in on 16 sept. wa, dua pai uh. everyone start work on 14 sept but he starts on 16 sept. and that leaves me with 1/1/2 days to do handover. wtfffff

sigh. there isn't really much to write about my life now. everything's still the same. i bet when waves 14 is nearing, i would have even lesser time to update my blog cuz i will most likely be heading to bed str8 after training. but don't worry, i'm defo gonna write an entry on my Bangkok trip so that i can make y'all jealous with my loooooot. HAHA

okay wait. i still have 2 more weeks before i fly off. ZZZ OCTOBER, COME FASTER!!

2009-09-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

5 more days to the end of my internship!! omg yessss i'm so totally looking forward to this day since 6 months ago! yes yes yes yes yessssssssssssss

i won't be getting any part time jobs though, cos Waves 14 is enough to keep me busy! besides, i'll be away from singapore for quite some time! :D so excited man. the last time i took a plane was 6 years ago?! tmd so long.

i very very much wanna travel to Taiwan, Hong Kong, Japan, Europe, Australia etc! aiya, basically everywhere la

omgwtfxz i'm so boredxz. no nice movies on HBO or Star Movies. major let down. hate it when my sundays and saturdays are like shit. but anyways, my family and i attended Tatyana's 1st Birthday! she was such a sweetheart! so pretty with the little tiara clip on her head. hehs. i hope she'll grow up to be a wise and beautiful lady! :) photos will be up on facebook (soon hahaha).

random: i hate hate hate hate HATE it when people whine and whine and make unnecessary comments and do unnecessary stuffs and try to act like they know every single little thing when they don't. fucking annoying much? i'm trying to bear with it. bear. with. it.

sometimes i think i should lock up my blog. should i?

2009-09-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

been rather busy lately and i'm reaching home at 10 pm on average everyday.
waves 14 is coming, and everything's gonna be rather hectic. 55 more days to waves 14. not prepared at all.

i totally hate it when other people have to ruin my mood. fucking hate it.

2009-09-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

i still wear it.

2009-09-06T00:52:00.002+08:00

i just edited some details on my blog's meme.

i wanna change my layout! to something much much much nicerrrrr :D
right now, i'm busy doing my scheduler.

anwz, so happy that i'm in Gladys' choreo! omgomg i just hope i won't disappoint her! i will stretch everyday i promise fishball! :D

2009-09-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

I have too many notebooks!

Despite that... I really really WANT a scheduler. Can't decide which to get though; the non-dated ones, or the dated ones (meaning i can only get it in 2010). I think the non-dated ones sounds good! :D Artbox has a very very wide variety of pretty schedulers. I luv. But i was thinking of going to BKK to check it out first, cos it might be cheaper there? anyways, I think it will only be put to good use when school reopens. So, no rush.

idk whether is it just me, or does most girls have such weird fetishes? Like, just keep buying notebooks after notebooks, schedulers after schedulers and then after awhile, we'll just stop using them? Entirely? Cos that's what happened to my $22 Prints notebook. And I still have another untouched notebook from Artbox (a bday present from feather) which is so beautiful. Oh gosh i really have no idea what to do with them.

I will continue using the Prints notebook for sure, after I remove some unnecessary contents inside. Sigh. Only a few people knows the actual reason why I bought that Prints notebook for in the first place. It's pretty upsetting to know that the main purpose of the notebook is gone. Everything that's written in there... it's not even applicable to my life anymore. Still can't decide whether I should remove ALL of these inapplicable contents because after all, I penned it down with so much effort, with so much thought put into every word and every sentence. Also, tearing out a rather thick chunk of paper from a notebook is kinda heart wrenching I might say? I guess everyone can relate to that.

Flipping through the pages of my notebook just made me realise that whatever I wanted to change, be it myself or the situation around me, it didn't work in the end. Maybe I guess that's the reason why I didn't have the motivation to continue penning down my thoughts.

I guess I should start afresh. After all, words are just words. Sometimes they don't hold any meaning. At all.

2009-08-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

This is random but...

I want an itouch :(
Kinda regret that I didn't buy a phone that has wi-fi. sighxzxz

Today saw me window shopping with Shujun. We used this outing as a chance to take note of what we want to buy in BKK. I have sooooo many things I wanna buy! Especially the bow hairband :(

Oh I had Slice again today. woooo super happy! Had Breakfast in Bed and tried First Love (the one with grape champagne ice and aloe vera + nata de coco cubes). Am a happy happy girl! Both Shujun and Jinsiang loved it. hehehehe everyone loves Slice! No?

Then we went over to Orchard Central (I just went there ytd with my parents) and had dinner and to explore around the place. Had our dinner at some restaurant that was similar to Subway, but tastier & more expensive. hahah

I don't understand why time passes so fast. There's so much things to do, and yet so little time.
Because with more time, I get to spend more with... you. Sigh. I feel like a total retard for taking a nap ytd which wasted 4 hours of my precious time. regret regret regret

goddammit i hate facebook. i fucking hate facebook.
1) i can't freaking post comments on other pple's page
2) i can't freaking load the highly raved game fish a fish
3) pages and applications are taking AGES to load

tell me, what's not to hate?!?!

2009-08-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

Year One sucked. The movie wasn't as funny, nor as exciting as it seems. It lacks of a storyline, so basically the whole movie was all over the place.

Hmm I like Michael Cera's acting though. :)

I feel like such a lousy blogger. There's nothing happening much in my life lately so please pardon me for these really really short entries. Now it's just working, working, working, working. 3 more weeks to the end of attachment, and 5 more weeks to Bangkok! I can't waittttttt. Aye, why can't time fast forward?

I need to buy more black heels. My fav one just kinda died on me today :(

and I don't like it that I still miss you.

2009-08-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

omggggg i just found out from my friends that i indeed do have the computer virus.

they said i was online for 2 days from day to night. wtf, no?
please note. i'm usually only online AFTER 7 pm. anytime before that is the damn virus that's logging into my account!
ahhhh, fuck you damned acai berry pills crappy shit virus.

i just system restored my laptop. i hope the virus is gone?

so sorry for spamming y'all with the stupid offline virus messages. i'll try to get it fixed asap, cos Leon promised me to come up with a solution asap. right Leon? ;)

anwz, today was pretty fun. was actually supposed to catch a movie, but there were no timeslots available. Leon, Jinsiang, Jere and I went to have dinner at Sumo House instead and spent most of our time playing arcade. played pop n' music, star ball, basketball and photohunt hahahha fun fun fun!

watching Year One with them again tmr! :D

okay bai, cos i needa do some anti-virus installation thing.

2009-08-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

omg lor? my sister just talked to me on msn saying that I got the stupid virus and sent her a message about Acai Berry Pills. Pretty sure everyone have seen that at least once.

Of all people why me :/

Anwz, today was hell weirdddddddd.

tired

2009-08-22T02:07:00.005+08:00

I'm tired of feeling this way...

I'm tired of having to keep up with everyone around me.

I really NEED a break. I just want to be in some foreign place so that I can forget about all the unhappiness in me.

I've been too unhappy for too long. Everytime when the night creeps in, I'm just all alone in the room. No phone calls. No messages. No conversations. All this is nothing like the past. Now it's just me behind the computer screen, searching for things to do to fill this emptiness in me.

Is this how I'm supposed to live my life to the fullest...? I don't see the point in wanting to try at all when there's no one else beside me to cheer me on and to accompany me.

I don't think I can truly be happy anymore, ever since the days things took a turn for the worst...

truth&lies

2009-08-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

Sigh my dearest, why are you leaving without telling anyone?

I'm so sad right now...why didn't you tell so that you could have made the right choice instead...

-------

I read about the things we said in the past.
It's like there are a lot of things you want to say to me, but you always either deny these feelings or just brush it off with lies. It's like there are moments when you are so certain about some stuff, and then you suddenly drop a few hints of contradictions. But most of the time you just... give me negative answers and negative reactions.

Maybe it's time I should start believing that you aren't lying at all.

and that you have nothing to say to me. At all.

"I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel - like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know."

choices.

2009-08-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna be dancing for this year's Waves 14...

Sigh. I decided to go for the China trip instead. I guess in the long run, this exchange trip would be worth while.

I will still be there to help out for Waves 14 though and maybe hope that I'll get a small role? Hah.

This year's production is gonna be great... I feel kinda sad that I won't be participating this year... so, don't let me down alright SDZ?

2009-08-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

This is so retarded... I logged into my Friendster account. Sigh. I really wished everything was like the past. But oh well. The "in" thing now is Facebook. No ever signs in into Friendster anymore.

I just want to leave those memories behind in Friendster. Shall not touch it. I hope you'll leave it as it is too.

Anyway, today was a rather tiring day. Met Shujun and Jinsiang and we went round Suntec to check out the tour prices for 5D4N F&E Bangkok. Pretty costly I must say. Cheapest is like $409 and $485? Guess we are gonna book the tickets and all on our own. Not gonna use the tour agencies' packages.

Tomorrow is back to work again. What a mundane life. sigh.

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I still feel you here til' the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain

Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me

; Sara Bareilles - Gravity

2009-08-15T18:32:00.000+08:00

i know there won't be a next time anymore.

but i'll still do the stupidest things for you.

2009-08-15T16:22:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh i'm so tired.

I seriously can't wait to go overseas after my internship's done. I shall start to save money diligently and refrain from any kind of shopping, because I'm gonna spend all that when I'm in Bangkok! Also, it will be the first time I'm gonna go overseas with my friends. ohmygawd exciteddddd

Waves 14 is coming soon. I can't believe I actually sacrificed the chance to go for an exchange trip in Beijing just because of dance... sigh. I hope I didn't make the wrong choice, because I don't get to dance in the concert if I go for the exchange trip. But not everyone is selected to go for the Beijing exchange trip for 2 weeks and all accommodation and expenses are paid for except for the air ticket which is just $200. Plus, NUS and NTU students will be there during the exchange trip too. ohmygod please tell me I'm not being dumb?

sighsighsigh, I'm starting to regret it already. But I wanna dance too :( I'M IN SUCH A DILEMMA

why must such things happen to me. sigh.

2009-08-13T22:37:00.001+08:00

hahahahahha i just find it hilarious that some people just blog about the same thing every SINGLE day. HAHA

2009-08-13T22:08:00.001+08:00

I totally dig the idea of me travelling to Vietnam, Thailand and Hong Kong :D

2009-08-11T00:38:00.001+08:00

Happiness.

That's what everyone needs.
That's what I need.

I need to be happy. And I know I'm almost there :)

2009-08-10T16:06:00.000+08:00

had breakfast at macs with my girls :) mcgriddles is like the best ever! from now on, i think i'll just eat that! it's like hotcakes + sausage mcmuffin :DD

i spent quite a lot today. food and arcade and body shop gloves and conditioner! ahhh broke!

i wanna watch movies. like lots of movies! including old ones. hahahah watching Horton right now. it's so funny. this is one of the reasons why i love to stay at home. :D

2009-08-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore :)

The last time I attended National Day Parade was like... 3 years ago? Miss those times.
But anyway, this year is different from the rest because I'm actually spending National Day alone. Oh well, it's not like National Day is any big deal.

I'm getting used to this anyway. In fact, I think I like it. I get to watch fantastic shows on TV and I can continue watching my Goong! Whee

hmm i'd like to think that i'm not lying to myself

i have to say this.

2009-08-09T04:49:00.000+08:00

i have been wanting to say these few words for the past few days.

no, this is not an irrational action. i just want to be truthful.

I love you.

2009-08-09T04:11:00.000+08:00

hahah omg wow look at the time.

i just completed my mini project and sent it to that muthafucker

anyways smth really random. i went to read other people's blog archive. HAHAHAH TWIT TYPING THAT TOTALLY DIDN'T MADE SENSE IS JUST SO HILARIOUS. hahahah man, i feel so guilty for reading those entries. so sorry :X

but oh boy, it really does bring back those good ol' memories.

2009-08-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

A few things that I do not like currently:

1) Freaking pimples on my face
2) The warm weather
3) My attachment Liaison Officer (he's one bloody lazy muthafucker who only knows how to push the blame to others)
4) Totally random emotional moments which leads to irrational thinking and actions which results in regret
5) Not being able to continue watching Goong anytime soon due to deadlines I've to meet
6) Thinking of you.

Talking about 4) makes my blood boil. Pffft. I don't get what's with MEN and their ego. Be it work, love, friends or family. Men still have to show out their ego. ohmygod seriously

Anywayz, dance today was pretty fun. The choreo was pretty hard, but I'll try my best to master it! :D
alright, I need to go rush my ITP mini project alr. Thanks to that muthafucker.

2009-08-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

Idk whether this is happening to the rest, but I have MAJOR problems loading Facebook, Twitter and my own blog page! What's happening to the connection?! It's bad enough that I can't load these pages in the office and now at home too? *aigooooo*

Dinner was hell awesome with Shujun, Angela, Brandon, Jere and Jinsiang. Food at Ikea was good! and the guys were so damn childish, playing with whatever movable and non-fragile items. lol. Poor Angela and Shujun, always bullied by the guys!

And for the first time in a long while... I took a bus home and passed by a familiar place. I miss.

Okay right, I know this is a rather meaningless entry. I need something to fill this emptiness. URGH

:(

2009-08-05T19:28:00.001+08:00

I'm... sad.

I know it's over, but still. There isn't a need to do that right?
Maybe I should do the same too to make myself better.

but I guess not.

2009-08-02T17:10:00.000+08:00

yeah alright i fucking screwed up. sorry for calling you names.
and i'll stop making myself the main character.

No matter what happens, you'll still be my friend. A good friend. I hope you won't just give us up so easily.

and...I believe in you. I believe that you can do it and succeed. So don't give up.

I guess all i need is time. I need lots of it. Maybe it will take years. Who knows?

2009-08-02T16:10:00.001+08:00

Having a cup of Baileys with milk right now. My favourite. yummm

Anyways, I spent $45 at the St James Powerhouse Station flea today. Was supposed to meet Huiwen, but when I reached there and called her, she just woke up. lol, so in the end I went to the flea alone.

The flea was hell huge. I swear there were more than a 100 stalls! ahaha this is by far the best flea market i've ever went to, because the entire place has good air conditioning and ventilation. I had troubles getting from the top floor to the bottom level, so I went round asking and met this girl named Alexis. She was shopping alone too. So we went shopping around the flea market tgt :) It's so nice meeting her! She's such a great girl. I love how such random events can happen. :)

Bought earphones at $10, a white long racer top for $8, a River Island yellow guitar tank for $7 (the owner didn't wear it before), 3 pairs of vintage earrings for $5 and a black blazer for $15 (oh btw, i think the blazer is from ohsofickle? dirttttt cheap! ahahah Alexis and i saw tammy's mum there).

Attending my colleagues wedding dinner later. Needa go prepare soon!

i guess i was too emotional. but whatever it is, the fact that all guys are jerks is true.

happyhappy

2009-08-01T23:23:00.002+08:00

hi all, i'm very happy today because:

1) dance was fun
2) going out with Sivien was way enjoyable
3) bought a really nice pair of black pointed shoes (somewhat like oxfords, and Sivien bought a white one)
4) bought a checkered button down shirt
5) had yummy pontian wanton mee
6) had Slice!! :):):)
7) some random group of girls approached me to have my photograph taken for their look book, because they love my f21 fedora and they wanna show how an accessory can change a whole outfit (aww they love me for my hat how sadz)
8) i love how my f21 fedora looks good on other people, and that other people love how the fedora looks.

needa sleep early today! going for flea market tmr at 10 am and then my colleague's wedding dinner at night. tiredzzzz

2009-07-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

today was totally random cuz i was on my way home early after work (left a lil earlier than usual) so that I can go for a jog, when all of a sudden, my mum called me and told me she was at toa payoh queuing up for registration at a skin clinic which her colleague introduced her to.

the clinic is called Kin Mun Clinic, and they are actually a clinic for people who are sick. but 90% of their patients are all with skin problems. hmm Dr Victor Wee was kinda good. he injected some liquid stuff into my pimple(s). yes, injection. hahahah hurt like !@#$% initially, but after that it was fine. he said that the pimple will disappear overnight. really? hah, i sure hope so.

but anyways, the whole consultation + medicine was $151. not too expensive i guess?

had Ichiban sushi for dinner after that with my parents.

sigh i'm boredddddddd

b-o-r-i-n-g

2009-07-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

urh... Blogger's having some retarded layout problem again. sigh, like what's new.

yeah, like what's new in my life too.

work. home. korean drama. sleep.

I'm receiving my salary soon. but idk why, i don't have the urge to shop. at all. It's like i can go into multiple shops and buy nothing. nothing catches my eye. hmm, I guess it's just that I have nothing that I want to buy?

hahahah okay maybe a scheduler? but i bet i'll just use it halfway through (or even lesser) and then chuck to one side. that's what happened to my $22 Prints notebook. HAHAHAHA i'm so a-hole.

random: i'm so lazy to type in sentence case as of late.

random 2: i can't wait to go back to school, and hopefully my acne would reduce? bcos it seems like after starting attachment, my skin is so fucked up. maybe it's the environment change. maybe it's the hormones. *crosses fingers*

alright i'm off to sleep. i want nice skin, and good sleep.

[am very very tempted to go clubbing... but only with the right company]

2009-07-27T00:38:00.002+08:00

oh yay blogger's layout is fixed. happy happy!

ahahahah omo, i just finished My Girl about an hour ago. it was freaking nice!!! it's one of my favourite korean drama! hahaha now i'm like watching Goong? LOL i didn't finish watching it when it aired on Channel U. so i'm starting from episode 1 now.

but it's getting late. so i guess i'll go sleep now and continue tmr. wooo happy happy!

btw, i went to Ion again with my parents. it's kinda hugeeee. i can't wait for shops like River Island to open. oh, i also had awesome dim sum with my parents for lunch. ahahahah i'm fat. really really fattttttttxzxzxzxzxzxzxz

speaking about Ion, i just find it a pity that i will never have the chance to be there with you. i remember how you told me and explained to me how great the architecture and design was when the entire building was still in construction. you told me how magnificent the whole layout was, and how grand those pillars look. you seemed so excited. you made me excited too. you made me take notice of a building that never appealed to me in the first place. you made me so sure that you are going to be the first person to bring me there when it opens for business.

but it didn't happen. and it never will.

it's okay. i will be fine on my own.

i'm okay.

2009-07-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

sigh. blogger's layout is still the same. crappy.

anyways, I'm sacrificing my k-drama time for this entry. hahaha. today was pretty much a happy happy day for me :D had Ben & Jerry's ice cream for the first time today (thanks for the treat Eric!). I had Chunky Monkey. it was yummy! and then i had awesome Yum Cha dimsum during tea break (thanks to Alan for the treat), and finally watching Ice Age 3 at the cinema with Sherlyn. I just realised that this is like the second time we watched a movie tgt? the first movie was like... King Kong, back in 2005/2006? omggg so damn long ago!

I hope my sister is doing well right now. hahaha i kinda miss seeing her in the house already. i still don't really like the idea of sleeping alone :/

you know, i actually think i'm okay right now. i'm just kinda... glad that i'm able to stop having the wrong thoughts and just concentrate on what i'm supposed to concentrate on. but i hope it won't actually affect anything between us, because i really want you to still be my good friend no matter what. i know what to do so trust me alright?

okay off to watch My Girl now. one episode only though (i can't afford to stay up too late - just like how i did last night)

(an act cute photo. hahah damn sec 2 la? byeeeeee)

2009-07-22T01:20:00.001+08:00

"it felt familiar, but its not love anymore"

i need to move on.

"you keep pushing me away"

2009-07-21T22:53:00.005+08:00

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.”

Okay I'm just being random here. Idk why people around me are all getting sick. Down with fever, flu, cough. Heard from sj that the govt. treats H1N1 like a normal flu already. Hmm. I hope I don't get sick though.

Yes, I decided to blog after seeing that the previous entry seems perfectly fine on my blog. Fickle minded can.

My sis' doing pretty well in Narita, Tokyo. She's there in transit, and she's staying in a hotel there cos her flight will only be tmr? Yeah. omg so cool, she called back a couple of times, and told us she had her meal there, and she even asked me if there was anything I wanted from Narita (she was in a Sanrio shop). SHE MAKES ME WANNA TRAVEL. OMGGGGGG

so envious :/

Off to watch My Girl now.

2009-07-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

uh, i pretty much want to blog but,

blogger's pretty fucked. the textbox area to type in your entry is like super mini? i'm just testing it out. omo wtf is wrong with blogger when i want to blog!

:(

leaving.

2009-07-19T23:51:00.002+08:00

Today was great, because I got a surprise from my beloved classmates! Hahah thanks Aaron (the liar -> as always hahaha), Tinglei (the planner), Sivien (the coordinator), Tyan Soon (miss this guy so much!) and Zhuo Feng for coming down to celebrate a really belated birthday with me! Thanks so much! Love the cookie cake from Mrs Fields, the really awesome meal/food at Spageddies, arcade session at Cineleisure and the night movie Haunting at Connecticut. And special thanks to Aaron and Tinglei for the presents! Luv it!

[Pictures will be up on Facebook]

But I feel kinda bad because today all of us spent quite a lot of money... :/ sorry for making you guys broke, especially Sivien. Hahahah XD

My sister is leaving for America on Tuesday morning. She'll be back in 3 months time.

I hate sleeping alone. Sigh.

...but I'll never know

2009-07-19T13:47:00.003+08:00

Just a random thought here.

I wonder if you are reading my blog.

Even if you are not, it may not necessarily be a bad thing because I can write anything I want.

But I'll never know.

2009-07-18T18:42:00.003+08:00

I'm typing this while I'm waiting for the first coat of my nail polish to dry before I proceed on to the next coat after this entry.

omg so nervous, next week is our dance exam already. Now we've left with the front solo part. Hopefully everything goes well :) and dance today was pretty awesome, because Ryan's choreo was as usual, great.

I went straight home after dance. I thought of lots of things to do in my mind for the whole of today. But right now, I can't rmb what I'm supposed to do and I have lots of free time in my hand. I wonder what I can do after painting my nails. Heh, I FINALLY bathed my cat just now. Had a terrible allergic reaction on my hands after that (as usual). This is the reason why I seldom bathe for my cat ._.

I'm craving for shaved ice recently! Slice anyone? :)

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Why is it that you always have to wane my confidence and the feeling of assurance time and again? It's like you pick it up, and then just it let drop back down. Again. And again. It's kind of like a vicious cycle... Sigh.

Maybe I should take it slow. Maybe because of all that haste, it is what that makes you afraid. Makes me afraid. But don't back down on me, no matter what the ending might be.

I promise I'll keep in check of myself.

I'd like to share a quote that Ramdan googled:

"Women are like apples on trees, the best ones are on the top of the tree. The men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and don't want to get hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't so good but easy. So, the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come"

and I especially love this quote (which I found on thinkexist.com:)

"I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel - like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know."

So true.

김현중 ♥

2009-07-17T23:57:00.003+08:00

김현중 (Kim Hyun Joong)! Saranghae ♥
So cute so cuteeeee I can't stand it!

How can anyone be that cute, handsome, hot, sexy, can sing so well, can dance even better than singing, and can play the guitar, piano and harmonica?!

He is even the leader of SS501. ohmytian.

His smile melts my heart ♥ ♥ ♥

; Prince charming! ♥♥♥ (it's odd that IRL, his fav colour is black and not white)

; Omo, this is too hot!!! It's like my laptop and handphone wallpaper!!! AHHH I LUV ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥

iluvkimhyunjoong!

I'll leave a little space for someone else too. ;)

happy

2009-07-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

hello i enjoyed myself a lot ytd! thanks huiwen, jiayi, sherlyn and javin for the dinner, even though the dinner itself at Giraffe pretty much sucked (no proper seats, no proper lighting, weird food with really weird portions etc). and i went clubbing for the first time ytd!!! went to Arena with my sister, Vivian and Di Lun. Ladies Night with free flow drinks. i like Sex on The Beach. :)

needless to say, dancing was pretty fun. they played Nobody by the Wonder Girls. :D

all in all, i had a great night, and i can say that i'm officially 18 ;)

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oh, i had a prize presentation for the Director's Honours List today. and I got a $200 cheque!!!! FREAKING AWESOME \m/
with this $200... I spent $65 at FEP today. hahahah must reward myself ma XD

and after months, i'm starting on a new novel again.

that moment was ours. thanks for sharing it with me. :)

2009-07-15T00:09:00.003+08:00

HELLO ALL I'M 18 ALREADY!

Thanks to all my lovely friends who wished me Happy Birthday!!
And not forgetting to say Happy Birthday to Doreen Chau and Lim Guan too! :D

Happy happy!!!

Thanks angel for the drawing. hahahah HUAT AH ;)

17 going 18.

2009-07-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

I'm turning 18... in near 3 hours' time.
hahah wow time seriously flies so fast. I can't believe I'm gonna be 18!
This means I can actually purchase alcohol over the counter, cigarettes (no, I don't smoke and never will I), go clubbing, take my driving license and apply for a supplementary card (my mum alr filled in the form lol)! Hahahah I'm kinda looking forward to the clubbing part :X No lah, I'm not some party girl. Just that i wanna know how it feels like to hit the club!! hahahah I'm pretty sure turning 18 is gonna be quite awesome. :)

Anyways on Monday, I went for dinner with Angel, Angela, Shujun, Julien, Brandon, Jeremias and Jinsiang at Suntec City's Just Noodles. Free flow ice cream and drinks! hahahah. Julien came wayyyy later and while she was walking in, she was like holding a birthday cake in her arms! Then they all started singing happy birthday to me and I was so freaking shocked. Hahah I was so confused as to who they are singing the happy birthday song to cuz Angel's birthday is just one day before mine. But in any case, they were such sweet hearts giving me such a pleasant surprise! And thanks for the photoframe, balloons and flower Julien! I love you many tons, and thanks for being such an awesome friend! And thanks to Sivien, Angel, Julien and Joan for getting me the River Island hot pink diamantes heart ear studs that I've been eyeing on for months!! Totally unexpected. I was like looking into my bag, and there was this mysterious looking plastic bag that reads "River Island". I was like, "who put this in my bag?!"

hahahahahah thank guys for coming down :D I love y'all!

and on Sunday, I went to have buffet lunch with my family before heading down to Parkway Parade to shop. Thanks for the singing birthday card and the makeup stuffs! I love my family :D

Okay 'nuff said. Pictures are on my Facebook! Do check it out yeah!

I HEART.

2009-07-14T00:31:00.002+08:00

I finally finished watching my BOF!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Love that show to bits!! I think I'll rewatch it when I have the time!! Omgggg freaking awesome.

I still love my Kim Hyun Joong very very much.

I heart I heart I heart him! AHHHHH

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And thanks to all my lovely friends who celebrated my birthday with me (in advance)! You guys were such sweethearts, surprising me and all!! LOVE Y'ALL!

Thanks Julien, Angel, Shujun, Angela, Brandon, Jeremias and Jinsiang! Love you all so much!
Shall post up pictures tomorrow!! :D

GOOD NIGHT.

(Can some kind soul give me an air ticket to Seoul, so that I can go meet my Hyun Joong? Kthxbye)